Pathway to my Dreams..

Changes

2011-05-30T16:13:00.002+08:00

Many things have change over the past 1 year.
I am no longer the same me that I once knew.
I never thought that I would have done what I have done.

Guess as time passes people change.
For the better or not.. I don't know.
But I think I have change for the worse I think.

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2010-10-02T09:23:00.002+08:00

For more recents update.
Please go to my tumblr!
I will update here once in awhile.

AM so lazy!

Hectic day~

2010-08-04T23:49:00.001+08:00

Craps! My days at Euraco is getting more and more hectic! I like! Time pass faster. But I don't like the OTs & the eatings!

The more I eat I'll get fat!! SL is saying I'm fat. Zzz.. :( he is not slim either.. Lol..

I left office at 7pm today! Can u imagine?! I was even early for work today! It's a long long day!

Met with Jessie n wei siong do some stuff.. But in the end the stupid thing cannot buy! Zzzz.. Think I need jade's help!

I dunoe what is SL thinking.. But I like the way he cares for me now. :D feeling the love! Muhahas!

Wonder is it cos the SMS I sent to him..
I think I was crazy that morning. Send him a message saying this

" Morning love..
Have a great day.
我知道你不是很喜欢我而和我在一起，而是因为我很喜欢你。i also know I'm not the kind of girl u are looking for. But I'll work hard to be the one. ;p
Ps I'm really falling for you. Hahas. Muacks! Love you."

I am crazy right. But u can never guy what he said.
He said: " silly.. Then u still wanna put effort on me ah? You know me I don't commit on r/s. Not that I dun like you"

I was like ya I know. Just let it be loh..if there is someone else I might just leave..

SL: " you with me others where got chance.."
P: " who say no chance"

Hahas.. Yes I said that.. N he was a little sad.. Cos he said then let others have chance.. I replied.. Joking la.. N he thought I was serious.. Saying this kind of thing where can joke de.. :x

He did say now being with me he will try to love me more.. Hahas. Happy!

But really la.. I don't know what he is thinking.. Because he starts looking for me on his own.. Lol
With jokes like he wants to inspect on where am I.. Hahas.. Well I'm just glad everything is working out fine now..

I have the urge to put his picture up.. But nah.. He doesn't really wan common friends to know. :p

Not time yet ba.. Outside friends Still okie la..

Can't believe I blogged my way home. :)

Me at jasmine's wedding! :)

Really need to cut down on the fats!
After my sore throat is done it will b jogging time! :)

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2010-07-29T21:46:00.001+08:00

Can I change a guy's mind of not getting married?

hmm.. thinking.. thinking...

Work.. Work.. And more work

2010-07-29T08:21:00.001+08:00

Great.. Just gotten a project yesterday. I've got to like run it alone.. Not much of a
Help wi be given by GM just what ever shits
The boss wants to be in the magazine la!
Headache.

Was great talking to SL ytd.. Due to me having a major mood swing! God knows why. Menses ain't due till next week! Lucky I'm not unreasonable type of bitch who fuck her
Bf about not meeting nor toture him like what SL said.

Dearie did say something hurtful.. We were talking bout meeting today.. But I foresee having to work OT. Then he say if I were to b having OT then not meet.. Cos he doesn't want to wait. Cos he is always tired after work..I was not sad or angry bout that.. It's the last part..

"If u think u need a bf who is attentive n must every time meet. U tell me.."

After talking on the phone then I know what he meant. If I were to be like that kind of woman.. He will end off the relationship.. Cos he wun want to hold on cos we wun suit each other.. 长痛不如短痛 is what he says..

I'm not a bitch. Lucky I'm able to adapt to who ever I'm with, with a lil mind on my own. Dun meet it's fine. But there are just days that I just wanna see him. Wonders will he ever know that..

Just wanna spend time with him. Short or long doesn't matter.. Just quality time...

I think I like him more then he likes me. :(

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<3 ღ is ღ in ღ the ღ air

2010-07-27T08:15:00.001+08:00

Okay been awhile since I've blogged. Am blogging on the way to work! Hehe.
Good morning~

Wonders who would read my blog now a days.

Do not read on if u don't wanna know my love life! Lol

SIlly boy aka SB aka dearie was so irritaing-ly lovable.( this was like a lil overdue. I tot it was posted! was suppose to be on last week)

Anyway I am offically attached once again. Yes! Again.. Lol but this decision now is not wrong. He is much much better then k.
Well being with k is super tiring can.. Plus the feeling is not there.. It's just for fun. (oops)

SB is also known as SL his initial.. Nah not going to place his name.. He doesn't like. Hehe!

Been together for a week. So far so good. Hope everything will go on smoothly..
Made muffins for dearie last nite. N rushed all the way to boon lay to pass to him.. He doesn't look shocked but I think he is.. Lol.

The funny conversation that we had..
SL: y u waste money to come here? Come here about 10 plus right?!
PW: eh.. Actually 20.
SL: you sre waste money. you tk money already meh
PW: not yet.
SL: then where u get the money?
Next time cannot hor.
PW: :p orh

And really orh was what I could say.
Well.. The muffins was not really cooked in the middle. Shit! But okie la. It's already done. He want chocolate chip muffins! Okie I shall make that when I buy the big muffin cake tin. :)

When i was going home. Been called silly girl. Cos I went all the way from hougang to boon lay.. Spent 43 bucks just to travelling to n fro from his place. :p

SL says I should just move over.. Save the trouble me spending unecessary money on travelling..
I seriously should learn to drive. So I can drive all the way down. Which saves me some money. Cos daddy wouldn't ask me for petrol for now. His boss pay. Hahas!!

I hinted dearie to faster get a car. So next time he drive me back. Lol.. Cos he was telling me he wants to get 1. N it will a swift. Crazy over that model. Zzz..

Okay I seriously into the r/s. Please pardon me.
ღ Perline ღ

:(

2010-07-14T23:19:00.003+08:00

Long time since i've blogged here.
The last was a few days ago. commenting that I am falling for him.
Yes him. a guy 11 yrs older.

Things are going well. just normal.
Just do not know whether to trust or not.
Because.. just because he is older and guys of his age may just want to come out and have fun.

But I like his company. (=
I just feel that he is much more mature.
He able to give more advices.

I'm just falling for him. but i do no want to fall into his trap.
*if there is a trap that is.

Dilema

2010-07-08T19:43:00.001+08:00

I'm slowing falling for you.
Really falling for you
But a lot of things is holding me back.

I don't know to trust or not to trust you.

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2010-05-29T22:09:00.002+08:00

Great~
Kinda settled the breakup part..
but then again.. we are acting like a couple.
Shit man!

I want to end it once and for all.
But i do not want to lose a friend.

He is too young to understand.
He needs to grow up.

For now i just need 1 thing. that is money!
HAHAS!

:(

2010-05-27T13:12:00.000+08:00

Something is really wrong with me. Feeling loney out of the sudden. I suddenly miss him.
What is wrong with me? We have ended and that's it!
Hais. I suddenly feel like crying! Shit! Pms?! Maybe. Arghs!!

Need to stop now..

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Glad

2010-05-25T08:37:00.001+08:00

I'm more relief than happy. Now that I've finally settle stuff with k. Being with him is too much for me to take. It's not something that I want. I need someone to love too. Not having a kid by my side.

Wonder if he understands. Do not want anyone to get hurt in a way or another.

Surprisingly I am not sad at all. Hahas.
Guess our relationship on my side has not fully bloom. :) so it makes it easier to stop. :)
If you ever to read this sorry for being blunt. But it's the truth.

Whoever reads this blog! I hereby announce Perline will be back to her cheerful self! Yeah! <3

Off to work now. Today is going to be a busy day. The media will be at the outlet. Causing us to have to make it to work at 9am! It's freaking early. I nearly overslept. -.- but am reaching soon already! Yeah! :)

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Do I miss being there with them?!

2010-05-12T16:15:00.002+08:00

I do miss the times when we all have fun.
I do miss the times when we all fight together for our goals.
I seriously miss all of you all. Too many to be named man.
I do not know what is holding me back.
Definitely not because I am dating Kenneth love.
Being with him doesn't stop me from going down to office.

I suddenly just do not have the mood nor the time to go down for now, i suppose.
Hmm.. I shall see all of you this Friday for Sis Stacy's birthday.
我对不起你 sis.
Thanks for believing me and yida and join us.
I really thank you.

I know I've neglected you all this while.
Sorry. (=

I only have 1 and a half day of break per week and the time in the outlet is really taking up my energy.
=(

I so wish i can go down to the new office to take a look.
I know i say I might be going down today.
I guess not. =(

I really need to work now for a more stable income.
I am much in debt.
Some friend of mine is not returning money. it's like only 60 bucks!
What the hell! being in NS so.. cannot even reply 1 simple sms meh?!
*Bish*

I miss all of you there. someday sometime I shall be back again I hope.

Have been talking to Jade bout the end of the world recently.
Been thinking have i missed out on church too much?!
When I was reading the article.. I suddenly feel so much.
I feel that there is a need for me to go back to church.
But I just seems so far from God now.

I know God will forgive, but there is a something in me that I can't forgive myself.
Is it the devil?!
It must be.
I really need to go back to church.
For the sake of myself and not for anyone else!

2010-05-11T15:18:00.002+08:00

It's been a month since i work with Epicentre.
Life here so far is okay. Not bad. It wasn't as bad as I think it would be.

I like Ion outlet better though. Got more sales!

Been to Marina Bay Sands (MBS) for bout 3 weeks or so. Come here is to hit housefly! Hahas.

There are tons of houseflies here at the outlet.

Health is deteriorating. Stupid MBS still on renovations!

It's not complete yet! Wonder is they can make it for the grand opening in June!

Hopefully life then would be much better than now~!

The peeps in MBS are fine! 1 Uncle Graeme - our SME, 1 idiotic kid Joel - part timer, 1 dirty minded kid Daniel - full timer, 1 lovely babe Jade - Cashier, 1 petite babe- Vanessa, 1 nothing but smile kid - Elvin, Last and not least 1 cool guy Winston - Manager.

The above was typed yesterday at MBS.
Now I'm off. So to continue.. Hahas

Been with Kenneth love for about a month.
Yeah we quarreled. Yeah like many times and even broken up.
But yup we are back together now.
Not sure if the decision is correct. ( I know you will read this. But we will never know the future.)
I just hope everything will just go on smoothly.
As in the relationship.
I know in life there are lots of up and downs.
We have to go through it some way or another.

For now I know I love your company.
We will work hard together alright?
Love you muacks! (=

2010-04-29T23:02:00.003+08:00

Having to work with Epicentre makes me more busy than usual.
Okay plus having to meet Kenneth love =).
The peeps in Epicentre are great! I click well with them. Hahas!
Great isn't it. Tomorrow will be having my 1st pay cheque!
Yeah money coming again~!
I'm loving it. =)

I'm so gonna get a MacBook Pro 13" S$1788!

So wish list of the year!
- New laptop which is going to be a MacBook Pro 13" S$1,788
- New Iphone covers so wanna get the air jacket @ S$59.00 - @ epicentre
- New shoes!

Hahas. there are more to come!

Headache! Shall blog more again! Bye

2010-03-27T11:55:00.003+08:00

Don' make me the person I hate.

Seriously I've warn you. Don't do it.
It's a little too much for me to take.
Besides the meeting is too short to confirm anything.
I'm happy the way I am now.
Do not force me!

Met my lovable ladies last night at the usual place, Bliss @ Punggol Park.
It's nice to meet them all again. Chit chatting bout our problems. (w/o the guys)
I just love them. <3

2010-03-16T23:34:00.005+08:00

It's time..
Time for everything to change..
look at mt dear laptop!!

It's Cracking up~! =(

I intend to go to the gym later.. hmm..

But just recalled my sports shoe is spoiled...
shall i just take mummy's shoes?

Surprise he remembers my birthday..
hmm...

2010-03-10T20:38:00.002+08:00

Finally!
Told mum bout school.
I came home on monday and she asked so ya.
Told her.

Don't think Dad knows it yet.
He say the form on the table just now and was asking me bout it.
Told him it was nothing. He has not asked again since.
Hopefully won't till Mum talks to him bout it. (=

Have been waiting for a long time for my appearance on “想我你的手”.
Script written episode 87 but it seems it's still not out.
From my mobtv account i think i should be episode 91 even though i haven seen it.
My stupid acct EXPIRED!! ARGHS!

So let's wait. (=

I can't wait to go to the movies too. I'm in “做人” as well.
Funny thing is i was not called up after that.
well as least, I was cheated by Steven Lim.

Daddy has been talking bout condo all the time!
Hahas..wonder when la huh.
Shall just stop here. (=

2010-03-04T18:44:00.000+08:00

Just dispice the way she talks to me!
What the hack!
Can't be bothered any longer.

At least she still respects me in front of juniors. ( some times only).

Can't tahan.. I know I dun deserve but then at the minimum respect ma.. -.-

Told a lie today again! Bout school.. Great huh?!
What should I do bout it.. Seriously all
I have to do.. Print the form n submit! :(

Come to think of it.. Next year is daddy n mummy's 25th year wedding anniversary..

Money come to me!!

Need to get a new iPhone cover.. The leather 1.. Hmm.. Birthday pressie? :p

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Blogpress

2010-03-02T18:43:00.001+08:00

Blogpress! A new app I downloaded.
Let's see how well it works. Hahas.
Try flipping the keyboard to the side where the keyboard is bigger but not able too. :(

But do far so good. Try adding a pic..

Family at resort world during cny. :)

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Lastest~

2010-03-02T02:42:00.002+08:00

Okay finally.
did up this page.
Yes i'm back here. (=

but then again something happen. I forgotten to save all the links!
So i lost everyone's links.
So who ever comes in and read this. please leave a comment or something. (=

Great I manage to find 1 link.. which is Alycia's.. I just went in before i change my skin so it in the history.
Lucky~
Alycia you must be honored. =p

There are things that needs to be done before my 23rd birthday.
-find a job. (yes again)
-do well in EY( yes again.. this will never end. (= )
-slim this stupid body down (yes AGAIN)

I gain weight again. OMG!

thinking of a plan. shall weigh myself later in the morning. have not weigh. hehe!

okay i shall end of here. (=

Friday/Saturday

2009-07-25T01:11:00.002+08:00

I am not sure i still prefer blogspot after so long.

Can't imagine me eating supper at this time.
Or should I say my 1st proper meal on a friday!
Well it's 1am now.. Can't get to sleep.

Been sleeping the whole day.
Was feeling freaking tired. Headache. muscle cramps here and there.
Weird.

Don't want to have H1N1.
Hahas.

Okay think most people don't know bout this. But I was asked to join Steven lim's model a few months back.
And he called a few days ago to ask me to be a calafare for the upcoming drama called 想我你的手 aka your hand in mind.

I will in for shooting on sunday. Just nice it's my off day. Hees. To be a nurse can.. And i got lines! 1 line though..
Not sure if i can upload the PDF file here.

Nope I can't.
Anyway ya.. it's like that.
Wish me luck! (=

Yeah! Amy's back~!
I'm going to be more relaxed now. (=

Still looking for a new job.
Hopefully i get one soon.

Need to get back in ACTION!
Before my application is rejected.
Well, It's seems it will be accepted no matter what happens. (=
Glad to be in this group. (=

But I wonder what I will do if I were so see him in future.
Heck lah.. I guess. It's over..
He will never have hurt me as much as bennett did.

Time to finish my noodles and get back to bed.
Working at 10am later.

2009-06-06T21:38:00.001+08:00

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Lost..

2009-05-26T10:32:00.000+08:00

I'm lost in a world where i don't know what to do.
Really I don't know what to do. =(

Wondering if what i did was by telling him off is right.
It's really painful to be hearing from your boyfriend time and time again saying
"Confirm with you again"
"Wait for my call k dear"
"Sorry"

It really hurts.
I am YOUR GIRLFRIEND not a social escort!
Only a social ESCORT will sit there and wait.

i respect that you have a lot of things to be done.
I don't mind even meeting up for 1/2hr or so.
I really feel like i mean nothing at all. =(

We did talk things for a bit before.
YES I understand you need to get the money. You need to work. But is there really no time for me at all?
I need to work too... you don't tell me when you are free.. You just let me go out have fun with my bitches.
I know you are not happy me being around them.. But then... you allow me to go out with them in the 1st place.
It's always.
P: "I'm may go clubbing tonight."
B: "Okay have fun. =)"

What you want me to say?
Even when i nag that i don't want to go. you will say: "go la."

I know you are giving me my space.. But this is not a R/S.. you are more like just friends to me.
Just friends with a little advantage..

There are times where i purposely stay out late. Thought maybe i could go over.. but i guess you never get the hint.
There are reason why i keep going over to your area. Just so i could meet you for even a little while.

Ask Jessie, When ever there is a message from <> over the phone. No matter what i am doing I'll be overjoyed.

Ain't this R/S in the honeymoon period? Ain't it suppose to be the sweet nothings period.
Why am I not feeling any single shit!
I am only hurting myself more as i fall more deeply into you.

I'm really tired. I wish you understand. I really do. =(

2009-05-21T10:20:00.001+08:00

trying to recall the past.
recalling the wonderful times i have with my friends.
recalling the wonderful times as a girlfriend to whoever the guy is.

damn it.. not sure what is wrong in the current relationship.
Does the problem lies with him or does it lies with me?
Am i not the kind of girl that you are looking for? Or is he not the guy i am looking for.

Not sure was if i am just a fling to you. when i say i'm your girlfriend you did not deny. the feeling is like soo... WEIRD..
Yes! that is the only word to describe this relationship.

Maybe i do have PMS~! ( Ask Jessie bout it.. she is going crazy!)
I was having a bitch fit in the OFFICE.
KNN, CB, KB was in my mouth almost the whole of yesterday.
and then again... it was freaking busy too.. and worse still being the so called senior of the day is damn hell not fun la! >.<

Wanted to bad to meet him( God knows why! ), but couldn't get the courage to tell him so. WTF~!
Jessie was like tell him la! but i was eh.. never mind la..

let's see.. Sunday is our 1st month..
I can see that nothing will be done to that day.. That day will not be remembered as well..
FUCK!
What ever la.. i think i seriously have PMS!

* Seems like Qi and jessie can be my girlfriend. I practically meet them every single day! Wah lau.. I think i'm much happier with them around..
Girls like me need to be pampered. It seems to me guys like him does not like to pamper girls. -.-"
He once told me straight in the face that he does not like shopping. Well I understand which guys likes to..
I'm fine with it. But even hinting the day before that i wanna meet seems like nothing to him.
He just tells me.. he is going in to M'sia. :@ arghs!!!!

I wonder why did i say yes in the 1st place.

woots. going to the Zoo with my bitches~! Hahas..
It's been like years since i last went to the Zoo.. let's see what has it become.. lol. (:
They really can be my girlfriends...

When will guys understand girls?
Or should i say when will he understands me..
like me for who i am really inside and not who i am when im around people and who i am physcically.

There are times when i really need a laugh.. You will make me laugh.. but other then that.. I don't feel like your girlfriend at all! T.T

I really feel like crying.. being sick you are not there. Always try to be there for you... but then again.. you never let me enter.

women...

2009-05-16T00:07:00.001+08:00

Hahas.. know why the titled women.. Cos i'm a women.
Lame shit. whatever.

Actually just wanna say woman are so contradicting. They can be happy for the moment, they can be sad the other and so on la huh.
Need not say more. Damnit!
I'm becoming a bitch can. LOL!

Well, STEVEN LIM actually me approached me to be his model. Oh well, you know being me.. i'm being closed easily.. hahas.
Anyway my pictures are up on his site. =p i look damn hell of ugly la. OMG! My stupid dark eye rings.
I was not on make up can. -.-"

Finally talked to Baby today. kinda solved our problems. well, Baby is really a nice guy. He understands where I'm coming from(i hope).I miss his hugs. =x Baby brought me to the Japanese Food court today which i haven been too.

He was like: "Been to the Jap food court?"
P: "No."
B: "REALLY? Are you Singaporean?"
P: "Hahas. yes i am.. but I've not been too.. "
As we reach..
P: "Ah... saw it on TV once."

How lame can we get?
Hope after today things will be better.

SIM letter is here. I am be accepted. Still pending if I want to study. I am still not sure.
Been earning money and spending money. Never really save too. hmm.. Hais..

Going Hong Kong on the 29. Be back on the 1st. Great haven return tampines mummy money yet. >.<

I'm broke..

getting irritated with live journal.. cannot add my ads.. hahas.. anyway there are some updates there too.. http://beautymemoirs.livejournal.com

2009-04-27T11:39:00.002+08:00

Am not in the best of mood.
Not sure if what i did was right.
Not sure if i should have done all those things.
Not sure with a lot of things.
It is not the way I thought it would be.
Maybe it's only for now. Conditioning myself is the best way to overcome now I suppose.
Being so called underground make things more difficult. ):
I really wish you could understand me.

we should have know each other better before everything. ):
What's done is done there is no way things could turn back.

2009-04-19T23:33:00.002+08:00

comparing my photos about 1 year plus ago and now.
I'm seriously getting to fat! I need to have an exercise regime.
Anyone bring me back to that time where i go to the gym almost everyday. Even if I'm not there to exercise, I'm there for the steam bath or Suana. I miss those times. I miss my friends too. ):

After getting to know Gary, my life change. but well, i'm glad actually, i get to know more friends. But i hardly get to really have fun with them. Maybe when i'm in a much higher position. hmm.. I need a life.
I need money~!

I don't feel like working. hais..

don't know what else to say at the moment.

2009-04-17T13:45:00.002+08:00

It's been a awhile.
Been busy.. Or should i say i have not been planning my time well.
*craps*

Seriously, I need to get going with the online shop.. Yikes! payment is due for the web hosting again..
hais..
I really dunoe what to type.

Shall blog in again..

Will be overseas from May 29- June 1st.

2009-04-05T23:43:00.002+08:00

Getting bored..
Getting tired of working too.
OMG~! after finding a good boss.. tsk.

Well, I also not sure. Maybe because i'm ill. It's getting on my nerves.

Been long time since i've blogged too.
Whatever~! Dad is getting on my nerves.. He is getting VERY VERY naggy..
YIKES~!
Cannot make it..

Hahas..

doing lots of crappy quizzes in Facebook.
Can't believe i'm doing so. wahahas..

anyway hopefully i can get the website done by later.
But i'm still sick.
Also dunoe how la. hais.. ):

Wanna go sleep. >.<

no pictures for today.. maybe another day. Hees.
When the site is done.. please promote for me!!!

Woots.

2009-03-31T15:44:00.003+08:00

Alright alright I shall update. Haha.
Haven been in the mood to update blogs recently. due to the fact I'm freaking busy la..
Working at Spa elements. the working hours is retail hours la.. so i dun really have much time for other stuff.

After work i still got things to do. Hais.

Aiya.. dunoe what to say also..

picture time.

2nd flower of my life.

1st flower of my life.

Before meeting darlings for dinner.

randomly taken.

nothing better to do take 1.

new hair~!

2009-02-27T22:42:00.002+08:00

Woots. I went to extend my hair.. Hahas.. come come.. show you all picture..

The hair is damn freaking long la.. u can see the frizzy hair at my shoulder.. original hair.. hahas..

It's heavy when it's wet... and super smelly..

HAhas..

Now i know the difficulties of having long hair.. OMG~!

2009-02-09T21:18:00.002+08:00

I'm getting bored from blogging though.
There is a lot of things to update. But not sure what to type.
Been trying to sit down and do the website. Xiao Qi is like nagging me up and down. But seriously I need to do that. Hahas.

Hong Kong here i come. Finally.. Get to go HONg KONG~ Hahas. =p
planning to go with my cousins on the 14-17 MAY! Woots. Hahas... finding a cheap plan though.. Hahas...

Need to go and search for things le ~! chao.

Testing~

2009-02-05T10:03:00.001+08:00

Well this is a sort of a testing post. I am using Windows Live Writer.

Wonder what’s with all the window live things now a days. Hahas.

Even MSN now looks so different. and I am talking out Windows Live Messenger now it’s like version 2009.

Really weird la. Want to look like vista.. then like not.. tsk tsk.

thinking~

2009-01-19T00:48:00.002+08:00

Well, Kai yan passed away. Heard his name before. Don't think I've seen him.
If I'm not wrong is the one who got cancer.. Hmm.. Well, rest in peace Kai Yan.

There is a lot in my mind lately. Physically and mentally I am tired. I quit my Job so that I could rest and start from a slower pace in ey and slowly build up my stamina.. but then at the same time. IHT is coming.. I'm so so tired. Been trying hard to go for appointment.. Trying hard to find MPs..
Not sure why so hard to bring.. so hard to close also.. hais.. hmm..

Feel like giving up.. but i still wanna go.. craps la.. I need to ***** but now cannot lers. hais..
trying not to niam.. but hard not too.. not sure why there is no1 around for me to really talk to.. last time still got.. now.. hard lers.. hais..

2008-10-18T12:21:00.004+08:00

Hello Peeps..
If you all don't see updates here.
Please go to http://blog.distinctivelyus.com/ ((:

Last DAY!

2008-10-16T13:03:00.001+08:00

It’s my last day over here are Siltronic Samsung Wafer Pte Ltd.

Hahas.

Pass few days nothing much to do.

But today I got a few la.

Finishing soon.

Last day then let me see a handsome guy. :p

Well, The Ang mo’s eyes SUPER nice la.

Blue colour 1.. I like.. woots.

Hahas.

I still owe 1 of the guys an ‘date’ to DF..

Cos the other time went for MY’s birthday they overheard I’m going..

Then keep asking me to bring them go.

I have yet to.

Lol.

Will see how la huh.

Hahas.

2008-10-15T15:32:00.001+08:00

*heart twirling*
Why did he have to say that?
ARGHS!!!

I thought feelings are all over.

WTF!! )):

-.-"

2008-10-15T09:15:00.001+08:00

DREAM DESTROYERS ARE IN THE BLOCK!

Here they come again.

Hate it when they say that.

Worse mummy said not to talk to her.

Fuck!

But in the end I also talk to her. She LL reply.

That was yesterday.

Guess it explains the mood.

Ever since I’m back from Malacca they have start a hardcore destroying technique.

Haas.

But then on yesterday was my last straw. Cannot take it.

Sleep in the whole day. I feel bad. ARGH!!

Today went to work. Daddy start on it again!

Fuck.

SICK!

2008-09-30T10:41:00.001+08:00

I hate being sick. ):

Sexy voice!

Yikes!

Friday is the trip to Afamosa already.

That is fast.

Huilan’s gift is not done yet!! Yikes.

I have to pass to the girls by thurs.

OMG! I want to die liaos. :p

Sickness please go away!

Lan’s pressie should be quite fast. ((:

Wohoo!!

2008-09-26T10:33:00.000+08:00

Okay I can’t access my other blog here in the office. Setting up the email post thing seems very complicated. I shall have a pass on that.

Anyway main thing 1^st,
I have a phone interview later at 1pm, it’s for airflow technology for the job of a receptionist cum admin assistant. They want Dip holders who are sharp. Well, I’m not sure I’m up for it. Besides it starts work at 730am! Can you imagine? I am already struggling to come to work at 8. *laugh* but they end at 5pm.

Got another interview on Monday evening at 4pm. The venue will be at Changi, near expo, also another receptionist job. What is the company’s name? Not known yet. Working hours if I’m not wrong is from 9am-6pm. *woots*
Also applied for an IT sales & admin support, hopefully it’s not as crazy as being an IT helpdesk. When you are busy you are busy, when you are not you are super slack.

*Woots* my eyes is getting better. It burst last night while I was sleeping. *Happy* at least it’s not so swollen anymore. J

Yeah fasting is over. I can slowly take in food. Not sure if I have slim down a little. Haven weigh myself. My tummy don’t seem to be any smaller, infect it seems bigger! OMG!

*Note: Random post will be here due to the fact Siltronic Samsung Wafer Pte Ltd does not allow me to access my own domain. Please note more updates are at “the past.the present.the future”

UPDATES!

2008-09-25T16:15:00.001+08:00

NEW URL: http://blog.distinctivelyus.com
Update links ya. ((:
Cheers

Oh.. i will update here some time too. do check it out. ((:

bored

2008-09-24T16:23:00.001+08:00

Haven setup my other blog to receive entries from email.

So I suppose I shall blog here again.

There is nothing much to do here in the office today.

Filled in some forms and sit here and slack, really slack.

Not bad eh, getting paid 7.50 per hour by just sitting around.

*lol*

You know I’m really slow with abbreviation. Can’t believe I did not catch the word lmao until like last week. Oh my..
lmao = Laughing my ass off.

*craps*

I am looking for full time job! Anyone got job to introduce?

*haha*

My stupid eye is swollen again! It’s the stupid same area where I had it slit the other time round.
*arghs*

Why?! L I look so ugly.

28 September, seminar at DBS auditorium, leaders’ recognition cum ‘open house’ showroom.

1OCT off. Hari raya.. public holiday.

3OCT off Afamosa.

Back on the 5^th.

AH… I dun have much time.. I need to go and dig out some old stuff.

Planning something for someone. Keep u all in suspense.

*Hehe*

Times up

2008-09-23T12:05:00.000+08:00

I may not be blogging as much as I will over at this address anymore I guess.

I will be changing a new url, hopefully soon.

It may not be blogger anymore.

I’m into another phase of my life; therefore I think there is a need to change another url.

I shall update you guys once it is done.

I may go back to my wordpress blog.

Time is getting tighter; money is needed in huge amount.

My online shop is getting no where.

Well finally managed to take the accessories photos.

Now editing them with the so called “watermark”, this is yet to be fully done.

Still got to edit the design.. cos sandy thinks that it’s a little plain.
I can’t really think of any design now.

Brain not functioning to design mode. wAhahas.

Today fasting with Dna and fruits I suppose.

Hahas. Lunch time already!
what fruits will be on sale?!

Yogurt drinks.. yum. I’ll get that too.

More accessories will be bought over.

When site is full up, I’ll let you guys know. ((:

2008-09-18T14:22:00.001+08:00

Finally! A time to blog.

Hahas. Haven been able to blog.

Actually can la.

Have chance 1, but then nothing much to blog about also.

WH say the correct lers. 我们认真吗？

Hais. Seriously hor, WH treat us so good yet we like that.

Anyway, debts should be cleared. Just realized I should have enough to pay off.

But next month I don't know liaos. It seems I'm using too much of my credit card liaos.

Need to throw it at home some where.

OCT 3^rd � OCT 5^th going afamosa.

Hui lan so sorry I can't make it for your birthday.

Really sorry. ):

I seriously paid then I know the date and it's for work.

Daren, Have a happy birthday celebration on the 4^th .

Same birthdate a hui lan hors..

Hahas. Have fun. ((:

More birthday coming up.

Sept 23 Sandy Pham's birthday.

Oct 23 Cheryl, weiling

Nov 2^nd Suan Jie aka sunny's birthday celebration.

Nov 22 deborah's

2008-09-14T11:33:00.002+08:00

Hais.
Lao Yi went to hospital for EMENGENCY operation on friday.
No one knows about it untill yesterday.
Wah lao.

She can still tell my mum, don't want to let us know cos don't want us to worry.
But at least she is now back home. She should be fine ba.
Heard she use a used syringe to inject her insulin. hais. medical thing how can like that.
Mummy say they want to save money. Correct la.. now economy down. then my uncle just got a daughter.. but then this kind of things how to save. See.. now even worse, spend more money!

Hais..
Later mummy still need to go wedding dinner. ask me to go with her.

I PMS~!! can don't go..

no mood..

ARGHS!! FUCK lers.

ML: sorry for the cam. ): Did not do it on purpose de.
KJW: brother, sorry for the zip. Hahas.

Say happy things now.
WOOTs!
BBQ at ah wui's house is great!
His house is great. so nice.
Learn some things from just listening to them talk.
It's nice.

2008-09-11T00:49:00.002+08:00

Today's Ladies Night is great.
I learn a few thing or 2.
Shall not eleborate here.
Want to know?! Ask me if you are a girls.
(:

Things are changing in a way that i do not want them to change.
Sometimes i wonder is it cos of my character that things are changing in a way that i didn't want it to change?

Ya. 1 year already. yet i'm still stuck here.
Think i know why. I haven change.

Hais..

Result

2008-09-10T13:17:00.000+08:00

YEAH! Results out!!

Was feeling so scary.

But then I got it… I got a B.

Whahas. Happy Happy. ((:

I passed!

I grad. Lol. (:

2008-09-08T13:03:00.001+08:00

Am in the office.

Lunch break almost’s up.

Wanted to talk bout this quite some time back.

Last Thursday to be exact.

Meet mummy after delivering aunty ah na’s earrings.

Went shopping at john little’s and later dinner at ps food court.

Little did I realize..

Mummy is getting old.

Her hands are getting so dry. And worse. They are so thin.

Her wrist size used to be the same size as me.

Hais.

Mummy is getting old.

So is daddy.

2008-09-07T18:19:00.002+08:00

Wao..
time really flies.
It's already september.
Valerie's almost 21.
Her actual birthday not here yet.
Coming wednesday 10th september.

The whole group of us left huilan's, jasmine ng's may's 21st birthday.
That is super fast.

I've know valerie and huilan for 14 years already. very very fast lers.
since primary 1 till now.

went to valerie's 21 birthday celebration yesterday.
good food good cake.
but not a very nice weather.
hahas.
but every was fine. ((:

well, nick propsed to cat just now.. at the chalet
Wah so touching.. i teared. hahas.
:x

really touching.
the 1st 1 to get married in our group.
I wish them happiness. ((:

mixing volka and beer is not a nice thing to drink.*puke*
mixing a lot of volka and ice lemon tea too.
hahas. val got sort of drunk. val and cat both vomitted.

well, i am happy to have them as my friends. ((:
love you girls.

*when the photos are sent to me. i will post 1 or 2 here. ((:

2008-09-04T12:22:00.001+08:00

I like this quote.
Got it from Mr Billi lim’s website.
www.daretofail.com

"THE HAPPY PERSON IS ONE WHO UNDERSTANDS LIFE AND ACCEPTS ITS POLARITIES. HE KNOWS SUCCESS IS POSSIBLE ONLY BECAUSE FAILURE IS POSSIBLE. SO WHEN FAILURE COMES, HE ACCEPTS IT."

Well, come to think of it.
Ya. People tends to be more happy when they understand life and accept it’s polarities.
But there are people who don’t.
Thus, they suffer.

Didn’t send this out yet..

I hold it on.

Anyway got this tiredness stuff from this website

http://www.rcpsych.ac.uk/mentalhealthinformation/mentalhealthproblems/sleepproblems/tiredness.aspx

Some of it is correct..

Will see how. ((:

2008-09-04T08:36:00.000+08:00

Okay haven been blogging, less say checking my tag.

Well, I can’t check my tagboard now also.

Am in the office.

Something is really wrong with me.

No matter how long I sleep, I still feel tired.

What is wrong?

Yesterday I couldn’t wake up again!

Like for the don’t know many times.

As usual, I did not come in for work.

*Craps*

They have started to warn me.

I shouldn’t be missing so many days of work.

Seriously, I can’t take the early mornings.

Why?

I’m a nighty?!

I don’t know.

Younger days I can still wake up.. go for 8am class where I have to leave the house at 7am.

But then now.. when I have to leave the house only at 730am I am not able to.

What is wrong with me?!

*yikes*

I think I really need to stay up 1 whole day and then sleep early and wake up early.. and not to stay up too late at night.

All is getting too over.. hais..

Or then again maybe I’ve been attracting the wrong things.

Been saying I’m tired. So I am.

ARGHS!!!

Can I just.. hais..

I shall attract the right things.

Speaking of working..

I never like working so early in the morning.

And never liked desk – bound jobs.

Hahas.

I’m a moving person. Lol.

But not moving a lot though.

I’m crazy.

What ever la huh.

My mind has always not been right.

Come to think of it.

I was reminded of this:

“what you think you are, you are right.”

Haas.

2008-09-02T13:53:00.001+08:00

Eek.

I thought I am able to take 26 bucks later.

Chiam.. no money.

How arhs?

没钱的人真可怜。 ):

我要我的钱！哈哈。今晚去的话我就没钱了。):

thinking

2008-09-02T09:35:00.001+08:00

Feeling super tired.

Also don’t know why.

I do not want to work already.

Told aili last night.

Waiting for her to call.

She has yet to.

Anyway, just know that I’m supposed to help another girl with her stuff while she goes back to her hometown.

From like 26^th sept till 26^th oct.

Paid for a famosa’s trip already.

So if clash too bad.

I also already told them I need to go overseas already.

Hais..

Seriously no mood to work.

But yet need money.

How?

What is wrong with me?

Happy birthday Donny & Yemin.

Yemin 21^st le wors.

May you be happy in what ever you do.

Donny!!

Your greetings are in your card.

HAhas. ((:

Time to go back to work.

Woots

2008-08-29T16:34:00.000+08:00

Hahas.

He msged me lors.

Yes!

Good good..

The next 1. ((:

thinking back~!

2008-08-29T11:20:00.001+08:00

ARghs!!

A little pissed with myself..

I should have gotten his number instead of me passing mine to him..

Craps.

Oh..

last night when I went to the Cathay with my parents I saw weiyang.

Chia weiyang. Hahas.

My poly classmate. He drop out when he was in poly year 2 or so..

Stupid me. my phone in the bag and want to no batt liaos.

Stupid me. yikes!!

And I can't find his friendster nor face book.

hais..

Stupid me!!

anyway. I went to watch I MONEY NO ENOUGH 2!!

It's damn nice la.

There are sad moments and crappy moments.

Really saddening to see the mother being treated so badly.

My mum keep hitting me la.. as if I did that to her. Wah liao.

Which I did not. and not intending to..

Come to think of it, it reminds me of my grandfather.

He had stroke..

My mum and my uncle and aunts actually did ask my grandfather to move from home to home.

well, like what my mum said.. he move only every 3 months.

and did ask bout his consent.. cos all working then very hard to take care of him.

I dun remember la.. too young. hahas.

So he moved every 3 months..

my mum say they not so bad as to let him sleep in the kitchen or in the toilet..

all got room to sleep in.

Only at my aunt house he sleep in the living room.

Well, because at that time my aunt is staying at a semi de. then 1st floor no rooms.

and my grandfather can't walk properly.

very hard for him to climb the stairs.

sad right.. )):

I miss him!!

He used to ask me "Perline arhs. Kor mai ki lai arhs? BO tai zi arhs?"

in english: Perline arhs.. still dun want to wake up? no school arhs?

His coffee O, his biscuit like the one in the show.

His blue strip pajamas pants.

His mole with a strand of hair sticking out.

his stubby face.. his moustache grow back that time.

His walking stick.

His blood sugar monitor.

His sound enhancer.

The way he look with a hole in his throat and his amputated leg when he was in the ICU..

I wonder does my mum think of him.

He also had diabetes.

Well, I need to get back to work liaos..

Chao!

IT works!

2008-08-28T14:09:00.000+08:00

Yeah. It works.

Well,

Am in the office now, Came back from lunch like an hour ago.

My supervisor ask me to take my time to do the work.

Cos her time is very pack today.

Tomorrow she is not coming in.

I am thinking of quitting…

Then again..

I earn a lil more money 1^st..

Need to pay for AFamosa!!

Haas.

$260

Then also need to save money.

Still owe a friend around $250.

People still owe me $100.

Den valerie’s birthday comeing, ron’s birthday coming, donny’s birthday coming.

All got to spend money..

Yikes.

Now all my expenses all on myself already. Travel eating out. every thing.

Better start saving money!!

Wah tummy today not feeling so good.

Hais.. hate it. -.-“

Oct go AFamosa, Dec going to JB for church camp. Paid.. suddenly forget the place.

Aiyo.. so much to do so much to spend on.. not enough money.

Haas.

Testing

2008-08-28T14:01:00.001+08:00

Last week I actually typed 2 entries and it got bounced.

Let’s see if this works.

If it works.. then I shall enter more stuff.

Thank you & Regards,

Perline Wong

2008-08-28T01:31:00.001+08:00

YEAHS!!!!
I DID IT!!!
INCENTIVE HERE I COME!!
WOOTS.

A FAMOSA HERE I COME.
HEES.

Thanks jesscia..
:p
New DD..
HIT INCENTIVE!!!

i love ENYOUTH. ((:

2008-08-25T12:36:00.002+08:00

Woots.
Sat was fun. CAKE FIGHT. :p
Donny look so funny.
well, mao got a chalet on that day also. I did pop over for awhile with sandy.
Don't have the mood to go over alone..

When he told me he wooing a girl. i was like.. hmm.. a little sour.. a little uneasy. But then come to think of it. What for. We are long over. Hahas. 4 years over.
I really do not like the 4 years thing..
Because of the 4 years thing May and Bear keep saying that we will get back..
ah.. what ever shit.
Can't be bother!

Main Focus:
1. My paper tomorrow at 1430.
2. Incentive

this are the 2 main focus.
Side focus:
1. to lose my weight!! cannot la.. i very heavy already in 1 year i gain 7 KG lers!!
OMG!

*did not know what to get mao. so drop by topman and got him a $50 gift card. wonder what he can get there. but then again. for only a person.. giving him 50 bucks alot lers. HAas (:

2008-08-23T17:21:00.001+08:00

Raining so heavily.
Not really in the mood to go BBQ lers.
Hmm.. but i told kristy that i will go.
Should i?

Hais.. i should go get a present for Mao also.. hmm..

2008-08-20T12:25:00.000+08:00

Suddenly got a lot of mix feelings.
Think of BT again.
I know I know,
Stop thinking of him.
But I seriously do not know how.

Sometimes I feel why I must be the one to go through so many things in my family.
Why must I be the one who create so many problems?
Why must I be the one being protected in the family?
Why must I be the one who hurt my parents so much?

Why must I be the one who spend the most money?

Why must I be the one who get hurt the most?

Why must I be the one who is so loved by everyone in the family, even to my uncles and aunts?

Just feeling a little weird, something seems to be happening.
Well looked through my horoscope for today I feel something wary but wouldn't solve it till later.
We'll see.

Too many memories with BT until it' so hard to forget.
Or should I say the relationship with him was really love.
*sign*
Sometimes I really do not know what to do.
Still dream of him at times, out of the blue.
What ever la huh.

People say we got the 夫妻相. So what.

*Craps*

What am I thinking?

Aiya.. faster get me a guy in my life!!!

Lol.

Trying not to think so much.
Just let things go as it is..
coming march I'll be single for 2 years.

Wow.

Such an achievement. Lol.

why I say this?

Cos I am never single for more than a year during secondary school. :x
Old liao la.. hahas.
trying to settle down.
in poly. Whole 2 years I am attached. That is also an achievement.
The longest relationship ever.

LUNCH TIME.

Woots

2008-08-20T10:47:00.001+08:00

Hello peeps,

Yesterday tao hin.

Dunoe is it cos not enough sleep plus bleeding.

Little low on blood.

Didn’t come to work.

Anyway am at work now.

And I found a WONDERFUL website.

Hahas.

StartForce click to go to the website.

Why I like it?

Cos can go msn.

Woots.

The whole website is actually another operating system ( OS)

Which I dunoe which OS la.

Anyway can go msn I happy. At least can talk to my friends.

Wun be so bored.

Keke.

But the saddening thing is I cannot access blogger.

When I click the browser it uses the same internet access as the 1 in the office.

So nvm.

I shall read later lors.

I can blog but not read. And read only my own entry.

Hahas.

23 I got BBQ. Who wanna come?

Lol.

A friend organize. Ask me to bring friends along..

People join me!

Wahahas.

I’m crazy. :p

2008-08-18T09:28:00.002+08:00

Cranky.

My turn to be bleeding.

Sians.

Hahas.

Not enough rest.

Lucky I was home yesterday.

Got medication to take, the pain was unbearable.

Suppose to go to church. Alarm rang den I brush it aside.

Craps.

What am I doing?

Well, this few days at home not bad.

At least there is a little bonding here and there.

Cousins came over for dinner and we watch the Table tennis match between China and Singapore!

The finals.. come to think of it. Singapore flares pretty well in that match.

There are bound to be little mistakes here and there, but it was the 1^st time in the finals.

No fear. ((:

China is strong.

There are more to come. Feng tianwei is a good player.

She could win even more with more training and besides she doesn’t have much experience.

Haas.

Not trying to be hao lian here. But then really,

Cos it’s her 1^st Olympics game

Have been Gaming as well.

Wahahas.

Atlantica online.

Look at me, this is before.

A year ago.

This is me now.

See how much weight I’ve gain.

OMG~!

Yikes.

Saded. )):

The F1’s track in raw form.

Haas. My dad working on the track.

Woots.

If the pictures are not able to see I’ll edit it later part when I am home.

Sorry guys. ((:

Time to go back to work.

Haas. ((:

Eeek!

2008-08-16T01:30:00.001+08:00

Okie. This was taken on 21 june. Didnt blog till now. Haas. Am using my handphone actually. :-P

A bra in e lift. Can you imagine. Lol. Anyway. Am thinking which phone should i take lg kwerty ku900? Home cam. Can 2 in 1. Den no need get another cam. Or ks20. Got wifi. Lol. Both lg phone. U guys wil say NO! AHahas.

Sleepy day!

2008-08-15T09:17:00.000+08:00

Haas.

After 招魂day, I fell sick. )):

Diarrhea even before I could wake up to go to work.

Tummy pain like don't know what like that.

Went to the toilet 3 times in an HOUR!

Can you imagine?

I also feel like vomiting.

Yucks!

The last time I felt that way was 2 years ago..

Wao…

That's long.. (feel like vomiting due to drinking is a different feeling)

Wahahahas.

Well, am in the office now.

Trying to work, while the others go for don't know what training.

I got another job offer.

This time is full time 1.

At UBI, Aunty Mey say her friend asking.

If I want to work there, then I will stay roughly around in September.

Which is right after my exams..

Hahas. (:

Should I or should I not?

Thinking.

招魂day!

2008-08-14T00:03:00.002+08:00

Wahahas.

招魂 (zhao hun = to call back spirit)day!

Like what WH say..

Got to to go find my spirit back.

Part of it is back la huh.

The other part still some where at home.

Yeah..

H-O-U-S-E aka H-O-M-E the comfort zone!

Really lers. one must really stand up from the comfort zone to find the potential that they store in them.

Eeek..

When will I ever have the DISCIPLINE to stay away from the comfort zone and really work hard towards the goals I want?

When?

NO CHOICE IS THE BEST CHOICE!

Yeah.

That is what WenHe taught us today.

NO CHOICE IS THE BEST CHOICE!

Eg: Imagine you are a girl, your bf is handsome. but the surrounding guys are more handsome than him. what will you do? you might give him up and go for another guy.

IF your bf is normal looking for he is the most handsome amount the guys around you. What will you do.

Be the best girlfriend lors.

SO NO CHOICE IS THE BEST CHOICE!

Haas.

At least you got a bf. :p

I seriously need to focus!

FOCUS FOCUS!!

I really need to think out of my comfort zone le.

2008-08-12T21:26:00.001+08:00

Woots.

Am here.

Just Now was updating the itunes thingy and didn't realise i installed safari.

Am using it now.

Well,

Not much difference i can say.

maybe when i'm with Macintosh than i'm able to see the difference.

Hahas.

Got to study!

Hais..

Think only i sians.

2008-08-12T12:10:00.000+08:00

aiya.. i'll unblock.
maybe next time i'll block again who knows.
:p

WOhoo..

2008-08-11T14:43:00.002+08:00

Guess where am i?
Yeah in school.
Hahas.
Lecturer going through exams revision without giving us the power point slides.
Wonder how to really listen to him in class.
HAHAS.

Ron talking to me on msn.
Finally, he is keeping in contact.
He say he got no more fire to fight his ED..
Ever since he miss his target.
Hmm..
well..
understandable..

I'm taking a short break.
Exams coming.
Stupid exams!
Haas.
but i still have to do well..

Like i say in my previous entry.
never pass this paper.
I will be dead!
I will not get my diploma already.

PS: decided to change skin. changed. nice?
Still deciding whether to unblock not..Hees.

to darlingz: I don't have pic la.. all with them
hahas.

2008-08-10T23:28:00.003+08:00

Okay i'm here.
Lots coming to my mind now.
Momentum is dropping again!

Hais..
EXAMS coming in like 2 weeks time.
This time round no more chances.
If i fail, that's it!
There goes my Diploma!
Damn!
I must at least get that stupid certificate!

I need to go back to church as well.
Craps!!
HOW HOW HOW?!

Idah's engagement was a success.
Although there are some glitches here and there.
Congrats Darl!

PS. Should i unlock my blog?!
Should I change a skin?!

Hmm..

Me?

2008-08-08T11:18:00.001+08:00

Hees.. It's me. Boo! In a new dress. Haas.. Enjoy.:) more pictures later 2night.

2008-08-07T12:40:00.003+08:00

Stupid bloody stomach
Lao again.
I can't image. i do not have constipation but WHY will have piles?
EEK.. It's been on off.

Mum & Dad screaming at me this bloddy morning! FUCK La..
Fine.. 自己靠自己！I will show you!!
Want me to move out? fine.. move out. It's been years that i want to move out already!

2008-08-07T00:34:00.002+08:00

To me, i thought everything was over when not a single reply from you today.
I thought i was not able to enter your blog, but i was able to.
anyway that's not the main point.

I didn't go grouping yesterday was not entirely because of what have happen.
My mum had her tooth extracted. No 1 was home and already told my dad to get dinner.
He was only home at 830pm. grouping was at 9pm. How was i going to rush to grouping at that time? He was also screaming at me the moment he step into the house. later part in the night. i had diarrhea. Not that i didn't want to go.

I didn't put anything to heart. I just take it as it is. I know it's my fault.
There is no more i can say except for Sorry and only sorry.

I vent my anger here, cos its the only place i can vent it.
This is the only place i can scream the word "FUCK".

You know, i hate myself for speculating!
because i have always been doing it.
I know it i've been doing it every since sec school.
AND i'm still at a point where i don't know how to get grid of the STUPID MIND N MOUTH I HAVE!
So what being 21 years old.
I hate myself being like this. really!

Reasons why i keep holding friendship so importantly cos it's hard for me to find some1 there for me all the time. (If i were to say the next sentence out. it will really affect my friendship with my current "Best friends". but i will) My so called best friends are not entirely my best friends.
They are there, but in the back i know they say things bout me. It happen before. I don't mind them saying. let them say but then things turn out to be very bad. It affected my lif ein my sec school. I am not beind able to be a leader. something that i wanted to be.

Dun worry its not xy or Idah.

I'm really bad in handling relationships. really bad in PR skills & CS.
For a moment maybe okie.
For long i can't.

The was angry at myself.. not to any1. not even you.
saying in between was what u thought it is.
Yes it is between you and someone.
It just me feeling in between.
I know no one ask me to be in between.
It's me myself. ALL has come to me by my own doings.
I blame no one.

I am keeping my mouth shut from now on.
What ever it is.. ITS GOING TO BE ZIPPED UP.
I will really be quiet now.
No more the bubbly me.

anyway i still owe you some stuff.
Will return you asap.

2008-08-05T18:16:00.002+08:00

FUCK lers!

Why is my fucking mind n fucking mouth the cause of all things?

Ever since young it has always been like that FUCK LERS!

ALWAYS DOING THE WRONG THINGS!

i always wanted to have a elder sister. although our 1st meeting wasn't that nice. but ever since we get to know each other better i really treat you ask my sister.

FUCK! what ever I say was wrong.

COme to think of it i was crying when you said all those words.

I didn't want to ask cos you said not to ask. i did speculate.. i didn't ask other ppl.

I only say.

FUCK!

Now i have to be in between.

I really hate to be myself.. say also wrong dun say also wrong.

FUCK!!

I have always put friendship in first place.

even that person betrayed me so much i still love them.

FUCK!!

i'm still young lers.. i need to learn! FUCK LA!!

confused!

2008-08-05T15:47:00.002+08:00

Okay, i'm felling rather confused lately.
Rather down, rather tired.

I SERIOUSLY do not know what is going through my mind.
Ever since I've join EY this feeling has always been there. My dream thief is there as usual. They have been there for 21 years of my life. But I still love them the same.

The problem does not lies with my parent. it actually lies with me.
Ever since I came to know about EY, when ever I work I can't concentrate. Even if I can it will only be a while. Worse still i always do not have the mood to work in any other places except EY.
It's always so mental strenuous ( is this how you spell it?). I want to have my own dreams. I want to fight for my own life. When ever I work is because i do not earn as much as i should be earning yet. I cannot support my life just yet.
Money comes and goes just as fast. NO. it goes before it comes!

I'm so dead right? I seriously have no mood to work.
Tell me what to do about it.

Like today, i totally have no mood to work la..
hais.

OMG!

2008-08-01T09:33:00.001+08:00

No matter how weird it will look like in blogger.

I still want to blog.

Blogging has been part of my life.

*YIKES*

Well having read through ML blog’s there is lots of things going through my mind.

AH.. I don’t know how to explain.

Although I do not have the moody feeling, but there is a feeling of being a woman.

A woman who had been through a lot.

Sometimes I feel I am surrounded by “childish” people. Or their thinking was not up to my expectation.

I am not sure. Or was it of what had happen 3 yrs ago?

After that freaking accident, I sort of wake up.

I know that I should never let a guy control my life again.

I lost all of my friends.

And now again

I sort of lost them

Cos I’m busy.

Hais.

I really don’t know my feelings now.

Think Girls are girls.

There are bound to have girls problem which we all don’t know.

Being a human being there bound to have problems for each and every one of us.

We are all given a choice to choose.

A choice to make on our own, cos we sin.

*mad*

I am glad that I am single for almost 2 years.

But then again will think of having a boyfriend around who will always be there to support you in no matter what you do.

When you go home late at night, he will come and pick you up.

Help you massage.

Make you feel so relax!

AIYA.

What am I doing?

Why am I thinking of all this past stuff that I used to do?!

Idiot!!!

Okay. Actually I can put BT out of my mind if I want to.

Well, it make seems hard at first.

But I am a lot happier now than then.

If there were to be another guy in my life I would finally put BT down.

He will always be in my heart though as he plays an important part in my life.

He was the one who make me realize the importance of a family.

*Hahas*

I suddenly feel so mature in my thinking.

I think people around me just tend to act a little childish.

If not you will feel old.

*Hahas*

I think I shall just stop here. Hopefully the email will work out just nice. Or I have to edit again. :p

Troublesome.

*Ps

Tomorrow take CD pin. Wahahas.

If you all know you all know.

I take a super long time to hit this position of mind. But hopefully for my ED..

I would not take that long. So far not so bad.

PERLINE JIA YOU!

ML, Jia you is all I can say to you.

I don’t know what happen but I will always be there. *smile*

You are always like my jie jie. *hugs*

MY, Happy advance birthday 1^st.

Hahas.

Also don’t know how to help you.

But I will always be there too. *smiles*

2008-08-01T00:26:00.001+08:00

okie conclusion. the emil thingy sucks..
the font will always go so big. yikes!

Sleepy!

2008-07-31T11:22:00.002+08:00

YIKES!!
I’m getting sleepy. L

Haas. The freaking guy messaged in the morning.
Something wrong with my phone. So think the message didn’t send.
What ever la huh.

I want to stay awake!
Coffee?

Nah.. no use 1. I need to much on snacks! Any snakes around for me to munch?
Nope.
Not today. L

Woots

2008-07-31T09:02:00.003+08:00

Hello guys,
Haas. I’m emailing a post righ now.

It’s really hard to do a post when the stupid internet

Doesn’t allow me to go into blogger’s website. -.-“

Whatever la. Just hope that this post wun be the super huge

Text size again.

I checked out the font size yesterday.

Haas.

I need to do my nails!!

ARGHS!

No time. MY never Jio. Hahas.

Joking la huh.

MY you know I joking de right? :p

Working now.

Took MC for yesterday.

Haas. :p

Tired okie..

Attached Charmaine for her appt yesterday.

Her place is nice. Big for a 4 room comparing to

The newer 4 rooms around.

There was this freaky guy who called me out of a sudden.

His name is Jake.

I dun even know who the F he was.

Never mind. We chatted up a bit and I was busy so we started texting.

Can you image him asking to go for a serious r/s if we click?!

And keep asking me to go and meet him.

HE IS CRAZY!!

Well he started to msg me again..

Eeeyew..

Die I dun remember giving a guy name jake my no.

Wonder how he got it and the fake he still knows my name.

Faint!!

My life with guys is so bad.

I attract the weirdest guy on earth!

*Puke*

Testing out email post

2008-07-29T15:24:00.005+08:00

Right I’m testing this email post thingy..
Let’s see if it works

Coffee?!

2008-07-29T11:01:00.001+08:00

Took this awhile back. It's not coffee.it's HOT CHOCOLATE! Yum yum.

Saw this quote ard. Stupid office.. Cant go in blogger.. So i'll do picture bloging. Haas.

Okay here is the quote..

Our greatest glory is not in never failing but in rising every time we fall.
-confucius

Back 2 work lors!

2008-07-28T13:38:00.001+08:00

Woots. I trying out the Microsoft word 2007 that blog post thingy.

Let's see if this works.

Hahas.

Hola

2008-07-28T13:24:00.002+08:00

Hello peeps.. miss me?!
Hahas..
okay.. started a new job at Siltronics Samsung wafer.
At old tampines road there.
THE STUPID IT dept block off all the social networking website.
ARGHS!!!

So i can't get into msn, friendster, facebook ebuddy. ARGHS!!!
I can't even go into HOTMAIL! EeeK..
Well, guess where am i now?
Haas. school.
So that explains the weird timing blog entry.

This few days been busy.
cannot have anymore late nights.
the latest 1am.
I got to wake up at 6am. Latest at 6.30am.
Starting work at 8am...
I even got to work on monday morning before coming to school. lucky its kinda near by..

I still left with roughly 8k++ to my ED.. arhs!!!!
COME ON PERLINE!!
You can do it!

more mp more mp..
Sell more sell more!!
Haas.
i'm crazy.

the new lecturer is weird.
hahas. new fellow.. Mr Goh go reservist.. and he has quit his job in TP to do mission work.
Woots..

I need to get back my timing.. then go back to church..
Hees.
Exams on the 26th August!

I got not much to update also...
Chao..
will try to blog in as much as i can. ((:

2008-07-21T21:18:00.002+08:00

yeah!!
The girls are back in POWER!!!
hees. Sandy is back in Singapore. Tomorrow she going down
to KPT.
MY thought though everything. ML coming back! woots!
GIRLS POWER!!

coming up next.. stay tuned!
Hehe.

2008-07-21T12:44:00.002+08:00

Eee.. i'm so bored in class!!

Haas. Shall blog in school then..

I'm so bored!

Project also cannot be done. coss cannot be solved.. waiting for lecturer to come so can solve the project!!

Can I die?

Whahas. :p

But i too high to die now.. I only got no mood to study.. nevermind i control!! I REN..

finishing soon already. coming 1st week of sept! I'll be DONE!

Woohoo.. whahas. ((:

I'm so bored!!.

after a few days of being emotional attached.

well, like what ML say i shouldn't be telling so many people. the more i say the more i will never let him go!

I will not talk about him anymore.

Okay from now on ML remind me if i were to talk about him again, please scold me!

Haas.

yeah.. 2 pillow pads yeasterday!!..

Woots. more money next month.. whahas ((: woots!!!

I'm loving it.. hopefully i can save the full amount of my school fees before the CPF letter comes to claim!!

haas. roughly 7k.. other people 6K + cos i got a addtional sem.

nevermind. I will make it!

I will not be down anymore!

but seriusly i need to wake up on sunday to go to church!!!

ARGHS!!! I always cannot wake up........

Small world!

2008-07-18T01:55:00.001+08:00

The world is so freaking small.. Really. Like the sky so big yet so small.. So is SG..so small on e map but we think it far 2 travel.. Yet we find ppl of the same name.. Im tired of thinking of him.. There is too much things which are far more important..

2008-07-17T23:15:00.002+08:00

EeEe.... why suddenly all the people around me know him?!!!

ARGHS!! and is his best friend somemore.. and his junior!!!

And worse same name! FUCK!

Hate it lers..

I really love him alot..

even when so many things happen.

So many months of not seeing him.. I still love him!!

It has been 1 year and 4months..(coming on the 20th)

why?!!!!

Why do i love him so so much?!!

Can i not want all this?

Really lers.. Can't I just get my mind off you?

I really want to get it off.. All off..

Can i go and have a brainwash to wash the scar in my minD?

It will always be a scar that will never be gone.

It will always be visible.

HATE IT!!

2008-07-15T23:54:00.002+08:00

i'm here to blog.. hopefully i will get what that has been bothering me out here.
maybe not fully. but at least most of it.

Hais.. quite a number of things is coming to my mind. but i dunoe where is it all coming from and where is it going too.
PMS? No i don't have. moody?
yes maybe.. I want to just stop everything and let me relax for a few weeks.

so many things going through my head.
when will i hit my ED?
when will the day i am able to spend freely?
when will i forget every single thing in the past?
ARGHS!!!
On and off again i recall that very day.. the day i went to the place, that place where i have to remove it.. it hurts once again and again.
I remember all the lies that he had said. but the feeling is just there no matter how much i try to forget. i still miss him. i still long for him. i still want to be his lovely girlfriend.
damn..
I need to fucking wake up!

He is no longer the same. his heart is no longer here. his heart is no longer with it. That is why he could say the lies!
Sometimes i really hate him. but then again hating someone is so freaking difficult..
The first ever love that i got. the first ever longest relationship that i have..

I miss every single thing about him. OMG!

i have been neglecting God for a long time. He has been there when everything wasn't right for me. I seriously need to pray.. really pray.
where has my faith gone?

Can't believe my early realease i got a B so now i have to work hard to get a better grad for my project and study hard for my paper. the very last paper. i need to do well. i dun want to let my parents down. i dun want to waste that money more over i realise they have not much money.
alot of burdens coming in. im tired! i really am. i wonder how anyone can talk everything in their hands?
i want to sleep..

ED when will you come?
DM will you take even longer?
SDM what about you?

BLUR, LOST?!

2008-07-10T00:51:00.002+08:00

I am back.
Was watching The Champion aka 任我遨游 for the past few days.
the Taiwan and Singapore production of the swimming team.

Oh the show makes me miss swimming.
I love swimming and it's been a long time since i go swimming. It also reminds me of my past.
A past that i really want to put behind. a past i will let my future partner know as well. he has to know.

Okay anyway back to the show. seeing how the coach motivate them to believe they can win the Champion and they really did.
believe i can and i can.. and to be able to well on 1 thing you have to totally 100% focus on the thing that you want.

I am not focus on what i want in EY.. and in life..
Am i still thinking like a kid?
why am i thinking that way?
More burdens are coming my way. It's time for me to take responsiblity of my family as the eldest child.

Where is the focus i have when i close my 2 singles last month?
Where was the Perline that 2 days?
Where is the coinfident Perline?
Why is the low self esteem Perline back?

I don't like being the low self esteem me!!
I don't.. I really don't.

But i do miss him out of a sudden. don't know why also.
don't want to.. he is someone who can never live without a woman in his life.
and is the sticky kind of man.
and i am the give it all kind of woman..
I want to change!! after today's ladies night.
I really want to forget the past totally and focus..
I want to be the woman that all man is looking for.. I want to the man to be under me.
I say 1 he dun dare say 2 kind. but certain things when he need to call the shot please call the shots.
I dun want him to be henpeck but the sayang me.. haas.

I am tired!!
I want to focus i EY again.
but there is still school and i need a full time job for now..
my family needs the money.. the house is tearing apart. need renovation.. and we don't have the money.
I want to give my parents a good life.

Someone help me!

Moody, funky, buddy

2008-07-07T11:01:00.004+08:00

Wahahas.

Moody, funky, buddy al the dys.

1st of all,

HAPPY 19th BIRTHDAY MY BELOVED BROTHER!!

Damn I'm getting old.

Haven received the picture of me and bro only.

He doesn't like to take with me~! ):

SOme brother.

Whatever la huh?! Hahas.

His girlfriend so good. Come over give him a surprise.

Wohoo.. so sweet and she have been preparing the food whole afternoon.

STEAMBOAT!

Whahaas.

Waiting for his friend to send some pictures.

I can't focus on what i need to do.

How arh?

How?

Can someone please tell me how to have the determination to continue?

very fan~!

Hais..

2008-07-06T00:56:00.001+08:00

some times i just don't understand myself. hais.. i really dunoe what to say here.
all is in me now.

ill

2008-06-30T14:41:00.002+08:00

i'm freaking tired. freaking sick.
Don't know what is happening man.
I feel so giddy now.
Force myself out of the bed. damn.
Missed school cos i feel giddy.
But i need to go down to school to pay my school fees.
It's already late.
Need to go and talk with the finance people to waive the $15 bucks.
Hopefully by 4pm i'm feeling better.

I can feel that i'm feeling much better now.
not as giddy when i just stood up.

Is it cos of all the disturbance that i'm having during my sleep making me feel so freaking tired?!
I think so lers.. and all the energy i put when i help ML n Kath.
I all out lors!

let's see..
I was disturbed this morning.. ard 6:45am i slept around 1+2am
Dad come to my room take liquid paper.
think 15 mins later he come in looking for a marker.
around 845am the NCS or was it NSC people called.
talked awhile. than hang up and called again around 9am. Just when fall back asleep again.
After that around 930am Kath called cos i msg her telling her her boss called and she called n asked me to wake up and go urine..OMG~!

On Sunday. dad had to work. again he come disturb me. in the morning.
Think i slept around 2+3am.
He came to my room ard 7+8 and show me he altered the bracelet. than think 15 mins later he came in looking for sun block.
ARH!!!
Here worse.
Saturday also the same thing.
He woke me up early in the moring at 7am to help him solve his email problem.
When it was a typo error that he couldn't see.

Does all this making me ill?!
WTF~!

CONGRATS Donny. HE hit his ED!
Oh man...

Back~!

2008-06-28T01:26:00.002+08:00

Wohoo.. I am back.
Hees.
Really I have to go down to KPT to get my mood back!
Hahahas.
my Motivational place. Wohoo.
I'm loving it ~!
ML thank you.
LB thank you for not asking. ((:

I will work hard to my goals.((:
ED come to MAMA. ((:

smiles (:

2008-06-27T16:24:00.001+08:00

Thanks babe.
Really thank you for waking me up for this short moment.
I've work my best to give what ever i want to give to my parents. (:

I love you ML. ((:

serious thinking

2008-06-26T13:50:00.000+08:00

There is a lot of times i really want to say LAU BAN.
but i can't.
I dunoe how to put it. seriously.
I know he means well. but there are times when i know my family better.
I really don't know how to tell him also. hais.
I know my family much better than he does.
I want to thank him for helping me all the way but there is just times when i really cannot follow what he say.

It's hurting not being able to do as fast as i am suppose to. or as what i seems to be.
There is times family is so MUCH MORE IMPORTANT than anything else.
I know money is need to help support the family and what so ever.
i'm sorry, but ever since something happen on july 2006.
I've changed. I'm no longer the old old perline where i still do things without thinking. i'm not saying that you are not thinking. but i have my own reasons.

I really love my family.
although i nag about them. i complain about them. i argue with them. but i love them.
there is no1 more supportive then them.

saying all this makes me want to cry.

I'm really sorry LB.
I know the difficulties that my parents are facing.
MY & ML please please don't tell LB.. I'll find a time to tell him.. but i dunoe when....

2008-06-26T00:38:00.003+08:00

Hahas.

ML I tried the sex and the city thing.

guess who i got?

Your favourite.... BALDY!

HAHAS!

I took the test on facebook on when i will get married or something.

and guess wad 30+ unbelievable.

Haas. 30+

it's so so wrong can.

Anyway i got nothing much to say today also.

New product launch.

Nice nice i like.

freaking tired..

jogging yesterday was insane..hahas. go facebook check the pictures out. hees.

2008-06-24T12:59:00.002+08:00

After watching THE SECRET, there is a lot of things going through my mine.
Reminding me of what WH had said last night. Reminding me of my past. What have i done? Was it right or wrong?
Come to think of it. Law of attraction is really powerful.
I've experience it many a times but i just didn't believe. :x
Just like when ever i am out i alway say funny arhs.. my parents didn't call.
The next moment they call and ask where am i?
Haas. It may seems like coincidence but NO it is not i tell you.

There is another experience of mine. When i was with Mr Tan.
Something huge happen that time. how did law of attraction came about it?
We were always saying it will never happen but it did.
LOA will never see the word never. It only see the word happen.

NOW then i fully understand what LOA is about and I am going to use it.
Give me sometime to really stable down and get use to everything that is going to change in my life.

OH Michelle better watch it as soon as i passed it to you. IT's so so GOOOD!
I'll try to burn... if can.. if not i pass to you tmr okie?
((:

Read your blog. Super long la.
But it reminds me a lot of things also.
What had happen during the past few years.
What my mum told me when I wanted to... u know la huh.

I am really thankful for those who have been around for me that stage.
Thanks Idah for always being there. you keep quite and just know not to ask.
Thanks xinyan for bugging me to tell so that i may feel better.

Thank you my unbreakables for all the lovely memories since pri 1. although Valerie is always in the middle of me and huilan. hahas. and thanks for still being my friend even though there was a lot of misunderstandings in the past.
Thanks Jas for being my secondary school compainion. always go home together. etc.
Thank you catz for being there for me especially that point of time. that cause to be so tired and even quarrel with Nick. I really appreciate.

Thank you yanili & ghim thia.. I know i haven not been contacting you guys eversince i got together with mr tan. but now i am back. hees. thanks for still being a friend. ((:

Thank you MY & ML. MY you have always been helping me eversince i've joined EY. thank you so much. ML although the starting was bad but now i'm grateful to have you around. ((: i always wanted to have a elder sister to rteach me certain things i dunoe. Now i can ask. I know you dun like me to call u sis. :p

For now if i'm busy please please ask me out so i'll not be so far away from you all. Hahas.
I'm really going to focus on what i should and need to do for my family and future.
To unbreakables & darlings: Please do not bug me to have a boyfriend.Whahas.
I will come in and nag to have 1 but it's not necessary i'll have 1 ya. :p

Alright if ML were to see this. she will definately ask me to call aunty janice. i will call as soon as i finish my 梦想板。dreams board!
It's almost done de la.. :p

2008-06-22T23:56:00.002+08:00

Alright. i'm back!
Didn't go down office today.
Was suppose to go down after project but then jeremy's uncle got stroke.
Wonder how is he now.
So ended up having to do project alone.
As usual i'll take my own sweet time when it actually very fast.
Whahaas.
Michelle don't kill me for this. :p

Project can consider done.
uncle arthur came ask me go and find aunty janice.
He say now she at home be tai tai.
Hmm..
Haven call uncle Henry to ask how he feels.
Aunty ah na say nothing lers.

Went to Jasmine's birthday yesterday.
abit weird. Kinda quite. we weren't as rowdy as before.
After that val, arron, nick , cat and me went to punggol marina.
We drank a lil.
Val drive us home.
hahas. funny.
It was fun to be there. we all started talking. 1st time really hear arron talk.
Really when there is beer.
everyone talks.
haas.
Great now 1 more kaki.. :p
JueRan forever.
dun bother about him.

i dunoe if i can get my momentum back.
I will!
Ooo.. the secret has been downloaded.
Going to pass to michelle.
704mb lers.. dunoe can burn the whole copy into the cd not
if not have to waste a dvd already. :x

I'm waiting for my show.
ming zhong zhu ding wo ai ni!!!
faster. hahas.

Stop asking me who the someone is.
Stop asking me to talk to him.
*shy*
I will talk to him when i need to.
Hahas. :p
really terrible. the more i don't want to see him or get close to him
the more he appears infront to me. OMG.

Shag - ness!

2008-06-19T22:10:00.002+08:00

Zouk!! here i come.
Wohoo.. most of you should know i never go to this places cos of my parents.
This is the 1st time i go clubbing without lying to them.
Whahaas. happy. ((:

The ladies

& the guys.

Whahas. Fun... The four girls drank a whole bottle of chivas.
Can you imagine?!
OMG~!

Thank you michelle.
I love you too. ((:
Don't feel sad bout how we 1st met and how was i feeling the other time..
what is important we are happy now.. ((:

It's been a long time since i feel so happy.
All of a sudden i just wish to have a boyfriend to rake care of me.
Whahas. but then.. i'm happy to have good friends. ((:
I love you guys. ((:

a crush is a crush. it's all over. ((:

2008-06-18T11:38:00.004+08:00

I finally know what michelle meant yesterday.

To me now.. I got no feeling already.

She doesn't look like me alright?!

Time to do a serious make over to myself!

I better start going back to the gym. alright set.

I'll do it next monday with the dieting plan from Enyouth.

Drinking their Organic DnA to detox and regulate my bowel movements.

I shall post up my weight changes here.

when it works, it will be a good testimony..

hmm.. but should i do it with exercise or without?

Okay i'll do 1 week without first.

Then the following when i'm taking the dna with food than i'll shall do with exercise.

This will sow that without exercise it will also work. yup!

I was actually on the window shopping streak yesterday.
I found i really look good in dresses.. OM.. But then.. I t was hard buying dresses before.

Never the less. I shall buy more dresses from now onwards!!!

Yippy!! DRESSES HERE I COME! Hahas. :p

Here let me show u the dress that I want.

Nice?

Lol.

I got Flabby arms! Okay i will work on that. :p

anyone shopping with me? :p