Really I don't know what to do. =(
Wondering if what i did was by telling him off is right.
It's really painful to be hearing from your boyfriend time and time again saying
"Confirm with you again"
"Wait for my call k dear"
"Sorry"
It really hurts.
I am YOUR GIRLFRIEND not a social escort!
Only a social ESCORT will sit there and wait.
i respect that you have a lot of things to be done.
I don't mind even meeting up for 1/2hr or so.
I really feel like i mean nothing at all. =(
We did talk things for a bit before.
YES I understand you need to get the money. You need to work. But is there really no time for me at all?
I need to work too... you don't tell me when you are free.. You just let me go out have fun with my bitches.
I know you are not happy me being around them.. But then... you allow me to go out with them in the 1st place.
It's always.
P: "I'm may go clubbing tonight."
B: "Okay have fun. =)"
What you want me to say?
Even when i nag that i don't want to go. you will say: "go la."
I know you are giving me my space.. But this is not a R/S.. you are more like just friends to me.
Just friends with a little advantage..
There are times where i purposely stay out late. Thought maybe i could go over.. but i guess you never get the hint.
There are reason why i keep going over to your area. Just so i could meet you for even a little while.
Ask Jessie, When ever there is a message from <
Ain't this R/S in the honeymoon period? Ain't it suppose to be the sweet nothings period.
Why am I not feeling any single shit!
I am only hurting myself more as i fall more deeply into you.
I'm really tired. I wish you understand. I really do. =(
recalling the wonderful times i have with my friends.
recalling the wonderful times as a girlfriend to whoever the guy is.
damn it.. not sure what is wrong in the current relationship.
Does the problem lies with him or does it lies with me?
Am i not the kind of girl that you are looking for? Or is he not the guy i am looking for.
Not sure was if i am just a fling to you. when i say i'm your girlfriend you did not deny. the feeling is like soo... WEIRD..
Yes! that is the only word to describe this relationship.
Maybe i do have PMS~! ( Ask Jessie bout it.. she is going crazy!)
I was having a bitch fit in the OFFICE.
KNN, CB, KB was in my mouth almost the whole of yesterday.
and then again... it was freaking busy too.. and worse still being the so called senior of the day is damn hell not fun la! >.<
Wanted to bad to meet him( God knows why! ), but couldn't get the courage to tell him so. WTF~!
Jessie was like tell him la! but i was eh.. never mind la..
let's see.. Sunday is our 1st month..
I can see that nothing will be done to that day.. That day will not be remembered as well..
FUCK!
What ever la.. i think i seriously have PMS!
* Seems like Qi and jessie can be my girlfriend. I practically meet them every single day! Wah lau.. I think i'm much happier with them around..
Girls like me need to be pampered. It seems to me guys like him does not like to pamper girls. -.-"
He once told me straight in the face that he does not like shopping. Well I understand which guys likes to..
I'm fine with it. But even hinting the day before that i wanna meet seems like nothing to him.
He just tells me.. he is going in to M'sia. :@ arghs!!!!
I wonder why did i say yes in the 1st place.
woots. going to the Zoo with my bitches~! Hahas..
It's been like years since i last went to the Zoo.. let's see what has it become.. lol. (:
They really can be my girlfriends...
When will guys understand girls?
Or should i say when will he understands me..
like me for who i am really inside and not who i am when im around people and who i am physcically.
I really feel like crying.. being sick you are not there. Always try to be there for you... but then again.. you never let me enter.
